Lost and Alone

I sit here as I begin to think

I wonder if anybody else

Feels like me

I have never thought

That it could ever be this bad

I feel so lost

How is it that

Everyone I see

Is always smiling

Or having a good time

They always have someone

To be there for them

I feel so alone

Why can't I

Be like everybody else

I don't mean

Preppy and snobby

I mean happy

And able to smile without a care

But no

I'm always on my own

Hardly ever smiling

Or always fake laughing

I always feel

So automatic

No matter what