Lost and Alone

I sit here as I begin to think

I wonder if anybody else

Feels like me

I have never thought

That it could ever be this bad

I feel so lost

How is it that

Everyone I see

Is always smiling

Or having a good time

They always have someone

To be there for them

I feel so alone

Why can't I

Be like everybody else

I don't mean

Preppy and snobby

I mean happy

And able to smile without a care

But no

I'm always on my own

Hardly ever smiling

Or always fake laughing

I always feel

So automatic

No matter what

Rockstar Dreams

You know me

and realize

what I can be

You know

I can be more

than what I am

Do you realize

what I truly

am inside

Could you

make my

dreams

come true

Can you

be the one to get

me through

the nights

You can

break my heart

and fix my soul

Just be with me all the way

You can fill me up

with whatever emptiness

you have

I really don't care

how we get there

Just as long

as we can get there

We are two souls colliding

and we are crashing

through the night

Tonight

All of your blessed

kisses

Are they mine tonight

All of my foreign wishes

are fading

with your every move

I can almost

see the light

Never let go

of me

You are the one

that helps

it all come alive

Just promise me

you'll be here

No matter what

Not Made To Be Alone

I know somewhere

Out there

There is someone

Who loves me

I don't know who

They are

Or where they may be

All I know is that

They are searching for me

Just as I am searching for them

Wherever he or she is

I know

They will find me

All I know is that

I don't want to live my life alone

Forever

As a great man once said

We are all human beings

And we're not made to be alone

I believe

That everyone can find

That one special person

I know that I will be loved

And healed

When this person

Finds me

So no

I know we're not made

To live our lives alone

I know that everybody

Has that one special person

That will

Always love them

And be there for them

I just hope

I can find that person

Before it's too late

That Day Never Came

The rain that falls

Splatters my window

But I can't hear it

This house I live in

Is empty

You've told me

That I am fixed

But I don't believe you

I still feel

Like I'm broken

I feed myself lies

I say I'm cool

But I'm not

I'm not fine either

I may be a jerk

Maybe it will be okay

One day

That day will never come

I don't plan on letting go

I shall continue

To hang on

They tell me

That time heals the pain

I guess I'll be waiting forever

That day never came

The screams that I have in my mind

Are a secret

Well

Not anymore

I've seen many doctors

Healers

And psychics

Not to mention all your

Broken promises

But they never help

That day will never come

For me

I will never heal

I will always

Be looking for

A way to put

All the pieces

Of me back together

But I will never find it

Lebewohl Mein Liebe

Ich weiss nicht

Wenn du weisst

Ich kann nicht

Seien du mit

Wegen mein Herz

Es ist zerschlagen

Mehr dann du denk

Ich wird immer

Liebe dich

Egal was geschieht

Du wird immer

Hab einen Platz

In mein Herz

Es war nicht du

Es war jemand

Bevor Sie

Er brach mich

Bis ich war

 Fast nichts

Ich weiss

Sie tun können

Besser ist als mich

Und ich weiss

Du weiss diese

Ich will nur

Sie glücklich zu sein

Sie können nicht

Dies zu erreichen

Wenn du bist mit mir

this is my first German poem and I really don't remember what it says
and sorry if the German translation is a bit off 

My Soul, Other Half, and Best Friend

You and me
Me and you
We've always
been together
You're my other half
I'm not complete
without you
You're there for me
when I need you most

Ever since we were
born
we've been stuck together
We fight
and then all's good
You're my best friend
Nothing can change that

dedicated to Bill and Tom Kaulitz

Happy 22nd birthday! 

Dharma

You think I hate you

but I don't

I just love

picking on you

That's what

I'm here for

You'll always

be my little sister

Nothing can change

that

I taunt and tease

but I don't try

to hurt you

I don't pay attention

to you

but I don't not care

You're my sister

It's what I'm supposed to do

That's my job

this poem was written for my little sister, Dharma

Nothing Left of Us

You're the one

that lost faith in me

That left me here

Lost me

I thought you were

the one to love me

I thought you could save me

I was wrong

You abandoned me

Now you're nothing more

than a memory

Now you've gone away

Never coming back

What was left of us

is in the past

Long forgotten

And now you're just

one of my illusions

I kept trying to hold on

Wanting you to take me back

I called

I wrote

But you never answered

or replied

Then I saw you with her

I knew you were gone

Now I want you back

but I need to move on

Maybe I should've

thought twice about you

Good-bye

My Afgan

Some people here

Take for granted

That they can

Visit their grandmother

Anytime they want

Just before the

Holidays

I hear people saying

That they'll be going to

Their grandparents' house

Then they roll their eyes

I look at them in

Envy

The last time

I saw my grandma

Was in 2007

I used to see her

All the time

Not too long ago

She sent me an afgan

Everytime I use it

I feel her near

I know she's close to me

Despite the distance

Please Come Back

You've left me here

In this lonely house

I know

You'll be back

But how long

Will it be?

You come and go

And I can't help

But wonder

What you're doing

And who you're

Doing it with

I miss you

And want you

To know

That I love you

I want you to

Come back to me

As soon as

You can