What Is Christmas?

Is it the shopping?

The gifts?

Tons of decorations?

Not to me

Christmas is

when I get to spend

Time with my family

My family and I

We don't have a lot

We never have

but we do have

each other

and that is all we need

I'm glad I have them

to spend Christmas with

Home

I'm a freak

Of nature here

You can't prevent

Me from being so

I don't belong here

I don't want to belong here

I just want

To get out of here

I want to go

Home

People tell me

It's wonderful here

I've lived here long enough

To know otherwise

I just can't take it

Anymore

I'm about to go mad

If I have to stay

Here any longer

The Backbone

You're the heart

and soul out of

all of you

You say a lot

but never speak

When you do speak

it's the grandest

thing we've ever heard

You're the backbone

the talent

the life

of the band

and we all love

you

I wrote this for Gustav Schäfer because we all know he's cool like that

Leave

You don't know

how I feel

I don't want

to see any of you

Go away

Leave me alone

You don't care

you never have

Stop acting like it

You'll never understand

these scars

I have my reasons

for such things
You'll hurt your

brain if you try

to understand

I push you away

because I don't

want you to hurt

me more

Just go away

You've forgotten me

I don't want you

Don't lie to me

You're never here

You don't love me

So just leave

Human After All

I don't care

What anybody else thinks

I'm not perfect

And I never will be

You can't

Change me

You never will

Be able to

Stop wasting your time trying

I may look like

I never cry

Or whatever else

They think I don't do

But in truth

I do

I still have emotions

I guess

That makes me

Human after all

Lost and Alone

I sit here as I begin to think

I wonder if anybody else

Feels like me

I have never thought

That it could ever be this bad

I feel so lost

How is it that

Everyone I see

Is always smiling

Or having a good time

They always have someone

To be there for them

I feel so alone

Why can't I

Be like everybody else

I don't mean

Preppy and snobby

I mean happy

And able to smile without a care

But no

I'm always on my own

Hardly ever smiling

Or always fake laughing

I always feel

So automatic

No matter what

Rockstar Dreams

You know me

and realize

what I can be

You know

I can be more

than what I am

Do you realize

what I truly

am inside

Could you

make my

dreams

come true

Can you

be the one to get

me through

the nights

You can

break my heart

and fix my soul

Just be with me all the way

You can fill me up

with whatever emptiness

you have

I really don't care

how we get there

Just as long

as we can get there

We are two souls colliding

and we are crashing

through the night

Tonight

All of your blessed

kisses

Are they mine tonight

All of my foreign wishes

are fading

with your every move

I can almost

see the light

Never let go

of me

You are the one

that helps

it all come alive

Just promise me

you'll be here

No matter what

Not Made To Be Alone

I know somewhere

Out there

There is someone

Who loves me

I don't know who

They are

Or where they may be

All I know is that

They are searching for me

Just as I am searching for them

Wherever he or she is

I know

They will find me

All I know is that

I don't want to live my life alone

Forever

As a great man once said

We are all human beings

And we're not made to be alone

I believe

That everyone can find

That one special person

I know that I will be loved

And healed

When this person

Finds me

So no

I know we're not made

To live our lives alone

I know that everybody

Has that one special person

That will

Always love them

And be there for them

I just hope

I can find that person

Before it's too late

That Day Never Came

The rain that falls

Splatters my window

But I can't hear it

This house I live in

Is empty

You've told me

That I am fixed

But I don't believe you

I still feel

Like I'm broken

I feed myself lies

I say I'm cool

But I'm not

I'm not fine either

I may be a jerk

Maybe it will be okay

One day

That day will never come

I don't plan on letting go

I shall continue

To hang on

They tell me

That time heals the pain

I guess I'll be waiting forever

That day never came

The screams that I have in my mind

Are a secret

Well

Not anymore

I've seen many doctors

Healers

And psychics

Not to mention all your

Broken promises

But they never help

That day will never come

For me

I will never heal

I will always

Be looking for

A way to put

All the pieces

Of me back together

But I will never find it

Lebewohl Mein Liebe

Ich weiss nicht

Wenn du weisst

Ich kann nicht

Seien du mit

Wegen mein Herz

Es ist zerschlagen

Mehr dann du denk

Ich wird immer

Liebe dich

Egal was geschieht

Du wird immer

Hab einen Platz

In mein Herz

Es war nicht du

Es war jemand

Bevor Sie

Er brach mich

Bis ich war

 Fast nichts

Ich weiss

Sie tun können

Besser ist als mich

Und ich weiss

Du weiss diese

Ich will nur

Sie glücklich zu sein

Sie können nicht

Dies zu erreichen

Wenn du bist mit mir

this is my first German poem and I really don't remember what it says
and sorry if the German translation is a bit off 

My Soul, Other Half, and Best Friend

You and me
Me and you
We've always
been together
You're my other half
I'm not complete
without you
You're there for me
when I need you most

Ever since we were
born
we've been stuck together
We fight
and then all's good
You're my best friend
Nothing can change that

dedicated to Bill and Tom Kaulitz

Happy 22nd birthday! 

Dharma

You think I hate you

but I don't

I just love

picking on you

That's what

I'm here for

You'll always

be my little sister

Nothing can change

that

I taunt and tease

but I don't try

to hurt you

I don't pay attention

to you

but I don't not care

You're my sister

It's what I'm supposed to do

That's my job

this poem was written for my little sister, Dharma

Nothing Left of Us

You're the one

that lost faith in me

That left me here

Lost me

I thought you were

the one to love me

I thought you could save me

I was wrong

You abandoned me

Now you're nothing more

than a memory

Now you've gone away

Never coming back

What was left of us

is in the past

Long forgotten

And now you're just

one of my illusions

I kept trying to hold on

Wanting you to take me back

I called

I wrote

But you never answered

or replied

Then I saw you with her

I knew you were gone

Now I want you back

but I need to move on

Maybe I should've

thought twice about you

Good-bye

My Afgan

Some people here

Take for granted

That they can

Visit their grandmother

Anytime they want

Just before the

Holidays

I hear people saying

That they'll be going to

Their grandparents' house

Then they roll their eyes

I look at them in

Envy

The last time

I saw my grandma

Was in 2007

I used to see her

All the time

Not too long ago

She sent me an afgan

Everytime I use it

I feel her near

I know she's close to me

Despite the distance

Please Come Back

You've left me here

In this lonely house

I know

You'll be back

But how long

Will it be?

You come and go

And I can't help

But wonder

What you're doing

And who you're

Doing it with

I miss you

And want you

To know

That I love you

I want you to

Come back to me

As soon as

You can

Shooting Star

I lie here

On the grass

Wondering

How many

People are

Doing what

I am

I wonder

If they're

Waiting on

A shooting star

To come

I wonder

If my star

Will ever

Come

Or are my dreams

To fade to nothing?

Break Away

Go ahead

Walk away

I don't

Need you

You're just

A burden

All you do

Is pull me

Down

You can't

Keep me

Here

I'll

Break away

Rescue Me

I sit here

In the darkness

You've left me

This was our

Special place

That one place

We could escape it all

Now as I see our names

On every wall

I feel like you haunt

My every thought

Every movement

You left me here

To burn with

Every memory

You had of us

As these walls

Get closer

My senses fade

You lied me

You crying was always fake

You never loved me

I"m beginning to realize

You're never coming back

But I still reach to touch

Your face

You're not here

Are you here?

What happened to us?

this poem was inspired by the song Rescue Me by Tokio Hotel... so no plagerism

Untitled 4

Another day

Passes by

And yet

We're still

Hanging on

I know you

Try to keep going

Don't worry

I'll help you through it

Remember

I am always here

You will never be alone

We'll make it through

The storm

Together

I know what you are going through

I've seen just as much

As you

I understand

What it's like to be

Heart broken

You try to push everything

Everyone you love

Away

Believe me

It never works

I've tried

I'm Different

I stand out

I'm a freak

In their eyes

They think

Of me as an alien

Or something that

Doesn't belong

I will never

Be like them

I will never

Fit in

I'm a

Freak of nature

Caught in a place

I will never belong to

Something I Go On For

Sometimes I

Want to end it all

Just wanting

To die

Then I remember

All the things

I hold on for

My sister

My dreams

Music

The hope

That my one true love

Will find me

Those

Are just

Some of

The things

I keep holding on for

Something to Live For

People think

I have it all

But I truly

Don't

I need something

To live for

Something

Precious

Like an unborn

Child

At the moment

I have nothing

To live for

I need something

That I can live

For

So I don't kill

Myself

Hopeless

I've never

Felt this alone

Even my family

Thinks I'm

Hopeless

Even I

Thnk

I'm

Hopeless

There's

No denying

There is

Nothing

For a

Hopeless

Girl

Keep Holding On

I've tried many times

To let him go

But never have

I succeeded

All the times

He's broken

My heart

No matter

How many times

I've told myself

I'll never let

Him get to me

I still do

My mind

Says to

Forget him

My heart is

Saying

Don't let go

I guess for now

I'll keep holding on

Loneliness is Back

I thought

Loneliness

Had left

It was

No longer

My

Friend

That's what

I get for

Thinking

Loneliness

Is back

Once again

Loneliness

Is my friend

More like

My sister now

And for once

I'm okay with

That

Lost Him

Who I thought

Would be

The one

Has broken

Me

I thought

He was the one

That he would

Never give up

On me

He proved

Me wrong

He gave up

On me

Sooner than

I thought

This Gift

The pain still comes

Maybe just once more

It makes everything better

I'm never coming back

The light hurts

My eyes

I have not slept

In days

I see

Death

Not far from me

They told me

That this gift

Would help me

That I could fly

All I had to do

Was close my eyes

And take it

Now I'm on the border

Of life

And death

This gift has

Helped me

These scars

Will probably

Stay

But I don't care

Anything

To make the moment feel

Better

I close the door

And take more

And more

It's so addicting

It helps me

Maybe once more

Just once more

Now it hurts more

Another take

The last one

My last wish

Remains unknown

This poem isn't about any addiction I have... I promise... it was inspired by the song On The Edge by Tokio Hotel

Back to My Darkest Days

I promised myself

I would never

Go back to

The dark days

I told myself

I would never

Be broken

Again

I feel

More alone

Now

Than I did

Then

Welcome back

My darkest

Days

Untitled 3

To believe in me is hard

To find someone

Who cares is even harder

As I let my life

Pass me by

I wonder if I was really meant

To find love

I've tried and tried

But he's never there

I've looked and looked

But haven't found him

My one and only

Doesn't know

I exist

I love him too much

Sometimes

His smile is all I have

To keep me here

Broken

I"ve lost him

I had to let

Him go

Now

I feel so

Empty

I can't pay

Attention

What have I done?

What did I do?

I've broken myself

How could I?

My heart is worse

Than what it was

Then again

I'm no stranger

To heart break

To being broken

Being this way

Doesn't surprise me

Always With You

Tsunamis

Earthquakes

And other natural disasters

Hit the homeland

People dying 

And turning up dead

I worry

And fear

For those

I love

And I cry

Tears of sadness

For those

I don't know

I hope things

Get better

For Japan

And all the neighboring

Countries

That have been hit

With natural disasters

I keep them with me

In my heart

Japan

Know that I will always

Be thinking of you

Everything you have gone through

In the past few days

Konw that I will

Always be with you

Know that I will

Always remember

The 11th day of March, 2011

Gemini Dream

I know

Some people have dreams

But do they know

It will come true

I also have a dream

It's not like

Everyone else's

Dream

My dream is a

Gemini dream

Gemini dreams

Are bound to

Come true

I could tell you

My Gemini dreambut

You would think

I'm completely out of

My mind

For wishing such

A thing

What If

What if I had never

Known about you

Would I be

The girl I am now

If I'd never read

If you had never

Walked into my life

Would I find that connection

I"ll never know

Nothing will change

What if I had

Known about you
So long ago
Would I still have
My love for you
If I could go back
If you had been
There for me then
Would I be different
I guess I'll
Never find found
Nothing will change

What if I had never
Let you into my heart
Would I still love
Him
Or you
Could we have a chance
Would we meet someday
Will I still know
Who I am
Today
Somethings will
Never change

What if I had never
Saw you
Would I have fallen
For you
If I had not thought
Of you
The first time
Would you be
The one
That keeps my heart
I guess I"ll
Never know
Nothing can change
What has past

Little Android

What are you doing

so far from home

Where is it

you metal heart wanders

Could it be

on a distant planet

unknown to human kind

Or is it closer than I think

Could it be you mislead me

with just your appearance

I know your home is somewhere

because your eyes

take me there

Let me follow you

back home

I want to meet

your people

And hear the many stories

you have

Learn all your

cultures

Please let me come

with you

Little Android

Because I'm a girl

I've been

told a boy

can leave

You in the

Cold

Become sick of

You and bored

I wish he'd

told me the

Truth

that I wasn't 

the girl for him

But I still

don't have a

Clue

I will always

have love for him

Because I am a

Girl

and nothing

Shall change

That

This poem and the five posted before it were written long before the next poems (in 2008)

My World

I see people living in peace

Everyone is happy in my world

Everyone but is happy in my world

How can you tell I am sad

That remains a mystery

My life is different to others'

But I live with my depression

This is my world

My Unknown Tears

Most of

my time

Is spent

in tears

Why some

may ask

It's because of

An

Unknown reason

When I'm

not crying

I think

about it

My life

is silent

for no

reason at all

My jewellry

is just part of

A costume

Under the costume

There is pain

Depression

And a broken

heart

My tears are

falling for an

unknown reason

I'm forever

broken and

Never healed

My Unfallen Tears

I can no longer cry

My tears gone

The only thing I have left is

My pride

Very sad, yes

But very true

My life is still

Silent

My eyes

They fill with tears

That never fall

The only way for expressing

My sadness is through poetry

Half of my time is spent

Reading

My life is silent forever

My heart broken

Until the end of my time!

My Untold Truth

I walk by them

But they only see what's on the outside

My past is difficult to understand

So is my heart
No one can see the truth underneath it all
I have so much to say
So much to tell
But no one will listen

There is an untold truth about me
And my past
I wish everyone will see the
Untold truth tgat I hold within me
That is my wish to the world

The Wedding Poem

If I could

Spend the rest of my life

With anyone of my choice

I would choose you

Now as I the days pass me by

I've never felt so elated

I don't think I ever will again

And you're to blame

Thank you

Don't Let Me Jump

I stand here

Upon this ledge

I can see it all

From here

I wonder if

You know I am here

I wonder if

You care

I wonder if

I will be missed

I've seen so much

Heard so many lies

You have broken me

You never told me

Why you left

And if I could have one thing

One wish

I'd wish for you to

Tell me

'Don't leave'

Don't let me jump

You changed me

Believed in me

Told me I could

Accomplish so much

Then you broke all my

Dreams

Not so long ago

I thought you were

The one

That it was you

Who could make

All my dreams

Come true

I'll still love you

Even when I'm gone

If only you

Would come and

Tell me

I'm still

Your only one

That I'm the only

One that can

Hold your heart

Instead

You used my heart

And it broke

Now I'm standing here

About to let it go

If only you were here

Now

As I take in

My last view

Of the city below

I fear that you

Had never really cared

The eyes of the city

Help me

To have courage

A person now

Screams my name

I don't know them

I don't think

Behind me

I hear the person

Telling me something

That you should be saying

To me

'Don't go

Many will miss you'

He tells me

All will be well

He's doing something

You never will do

He's not letting

Me jump

One Heart

One heart

Sinks

To the bottom

One heart

Left alone

To suffer

One heart

Left to die

Without

Its one and only

One heart

Forever

Lost in the crowd

Of many

One heart

Waits

For true love

To find it

One heart

Forever

Forgotten

One heart

Never to find

Love

One heart

Forever

Roaming alone

One heart

Always breaking

Never fixed

My heart

Lost without

Yours

Karma

Be careful

Of what you

Do

It may all

Come back on

You

Watch what

You say about

Me

For one day

You will get the

Worst

One day

Karma will

Come back

To you

You will

Regret

What you have

Done to me

I will be more

Than what

You thought

I'd be

Karma will

Change your

Life

Twin

You walked into

My life

Unexpected

I didn't know

You and yet

You were

There

Over time

You became

My friend

I don't know

How you

Did it

But you've

Pulled me through

I don't think

I could be closer

To anyone

As I have been

Close to you

You are my twin

My other half

It was pure

Luck

I found you

His Sweet Name

My heart

Belongs to

Only one

He just

Doesn't know

Who I am

It's hard

Loving someone

Who doesn't know

You even exist

I scratch

His sweet name

Into my skin

I can't help it

It's the only thing

I have of him

That keeps me

Sane

Untitled 2

There are only a

Select few people

Who can get 

Me breathing

Heavily

One of those

People I've

Never even

Met

Everytime

I see him or

Hear his name

My chest swells

My heart flutters and

It's hard for me

To breathe

His voice soothes

My anger

His face is like

Nothing

I've ever seen

What I Can't Have

The tears

Roll down

My cheeks

As I look

At your

Picture

You mean

The world

To me

Though we've

Never met

I've always

Seen you for

What you are

A loving, caring

Guy

Whether you

Know it or not

I love you,

Stranger

You are

What I cannot

Have

I Hate Myself

I've been

Told

That I am

A very unique

Person

Some have

Even told

Me that

I'm also

Interesting

To tell you

The truth

I hate the

Way I am

The way

I look

The way I

Think

I hate it

The only

Thing I love

About myself

Is my eyes and

My hair

Plus my

Love for

Music

Other than

That

I hate myself

Smiles and Sufferings

For years

I have always

Made people happy

I enjoy seeing

Others smile

While I

Stay pained

That's my

Motto

Let others

Smile

And let

Me suffer

I've been

Like that

For three years

Like I've said

I love it when

People smile or

Are happy

To My Brother

You're the brother

I never had

Nothing like I've

Ever known

I have to say

Thank you

Even when I'm

Down

You always

Seem to get

Me to laugh

I don't know

What I'd do

Without you

Again

Thank you

For brightening

Every day

My Passion and My Love

If I ever

Had to choose

Between my love

And my passion

I couldn't choose

It would be a

Hard decision

This is because

My love is music

And my passion

Is also music

Music has been there

For me when

No one else was

Music has saved

My life

If it wasn't for

Music

I wouldn't be here

Over the years

My love for

Music has increased

Forever Together

We've been through

it all

We've both seen

heartbreaks

We've been through

tears of joy

and sorrow

We've laughed and cried

together

We've had fights

but never have

we stayed angry at

each other

for long

I would do anything

for you

So we must

go through

every monsoon

to be together

And never

look back

We must endure

the pain

that comes

Happiness

Joy

Love

Pain

Hate

We'll see

it all

Forever Together

We've been through

It all

We've seen heartbreaks

We've been through

Tears of joy

And sorrow

We've laughed and cried

Together

We've had fights

But never have

We been angry at 

Each other

For long

I don't believe

We will ever

Be separated

No matter what

I would do anything

For you

Und wir mussen 

den Monsun durchlaufen

In Your Shadow I can Shine

I’m not much
Just a no body
But you
You’re the person
Everybody loves

I know that you
Love
And you know that
I love you
That’s why
In your shadow
I can shine
Despite the darkness

My soul is a nightmare
Out of control
I’m the moon and
You’re the sun

Just do me a favour
Don’t let go
Don’t you know
That in your shadow
I can shine

I’m such a sad, sad sight
But when I’m in your
Shadow
I can shine

Dedicated to Bill and Tom Kaulitz

who will always shine in each others' shadows

In the State of Confusion

I wish some people
Would make up
Their minds
I don’t understand
How they mean
One thing
But yet
Mean another

It’s all so
Confusing
Don’t people think
I have enough on
My mind
I believe so
They never
Understand

My Reply

I know of a song
The name
Zoom Into Me *
I’ve decided to
Reply to the lyrics

“Is there anybody out there
Walking alone?”
Yes, me

“Is there anybody out there
Out in the cold?”
Again, me

“One heartbeat
Lost in the crowd”
Mine

“Is there anybody shoutin’
What no one can hear?”
I am

“Is there anybody drownin’
Pulled down by the fear”
Always

“I feel you”
Do you?

“Don’t look away”
I might

“Zoom into me
Zoom into me”
Will it help?

“I know you’re scared”
You truly do?

“When you can’t breathe
I will be there”
Are you here?

“Zoom into me”
If it helps

“Is there anybody laughing
To kill the pain?”
Of course I am

“Is there anybody screamin’
The silence away?”
Almost always

“Just open your jaded eyes”
If I must

“Come closer”
Yes, of course
“And closer”
How is this?

“Zoom into me
Zoom into me”
If it helps
I will

“When the world
Cuts your soul into pieces
And you start to bleed”
Like right now?

“When you can’t breathe
I will be there”
I can’t breathe now
But you’re not here

“Zoom into me”
I shall

The author of
This poem
Gives credit to
A band called
Tokio Hotel
Thank you

*This is not the full song

I credited the band so don't sue me

What I Mean Is...

If there has
Ever been
Someone, anyone
To get my heart
Pumping
It would be
You

I don’t think
Anybody
Even in the worst of
Times
Could get me to
Smile
No one but
You

I think what
I’m trying to say is
I love you
There has nothing
And no one
I’ve ever seriously
Told that to
But you make the
First

Always

I know sometimes
We get on each others’
Nerves
We can royally piss
Each other off
But I also know that
Most days
We laugh like
There’s no
Tomorrow

We might come from
Different families
But you are the younger
Sister
I’ve always wanted
I’ve always needed
No matter how many
Arguments we have
No matter how angry
We get at each other
I want you to remember
You’ll forever be sacred to me and
I’ll always love you

Used

I feel so lost
And I have a
Good feeling
No one cares

I’m not surprised
I believe
I’ve never been
Cared about
People have led
Me to believe
Otherwise

I’ve always been
Used
Like I’m some
Kind if tool
Just to be used
Then tossed to the side

That is the
Reason I cry
Because I am
Used

Never the Same Again

I have been told
That I am always
The same
Never changing

I’ve proved those
People
Wrong
I’ve changed

 My whole life
Has always been
Hectic
I’ve always
Cried
Screamed
But yet I’ve
Never laughed

I know that
Will never be
The same
I will always
Cry, yes
But I shall also
Laugh

I'm Not Gonna Live Forever

Miracles
I don’t believe in them
Never did
Nothing hardly ever
Happens here
I’m tired of it

I want to live
My life to the fullest
Wanna know why?
Because I’m not
Gonna live forever
So I better make it
Now or not at all

To tell you the truth
I don’t  believe in
Fairey tales
Way too cynical
And people have told me
That I don’t have
An imagination because
I don’t believe
They’re wrong
Otherwise I wouldn’t
Be writing this

Forever

If there was ever
A day that went
Well
I don’t remember it

For now I wait
For what?
The best day of my life

That’ll be the day
I’ll be fixed
And I’ll be ready
To come home
And be fine
Left alone

That day never came
That day will never
Come
I’ll be waiting
Forever

My life is screwed up
And will forever remain
Screwed up

Welcome to Humanoid City

We live here
No human knows of
Us

We are not
Human ourselves
We are
Humanoid aliens

The only way to
Find us is to
Believe you are
One of us

I have lived
Here for years
Believe me
Years feel like days

Our city is located
In a special place
But if you are
Human and read this
You’d think
I’m crazy
If I told you
You’d say
There’s no such
Humans do not
Believe
So I shall not
Tell you

Now all I have
To say is
Welcome to
Humanoid City
Dear friend

Promises

Can you promise
Me you’ll never
Hurt me?
I won’t
Hurt you

Can you promise
Me you’ll always
Love me?
I’ll always
Love you

Can you promise
Me you’ll be the one
I need?
I’ll be the one
You’ll need

Can you promise
You’ll treat
Me right?
I’ll treat
You right

And can you promise
Me you’ll
Love me
Treat me
Need me and
Feed me your love?
I can promise
You that and more

Be Somebody

I’ve been told
That what I
Dream of being
Will get me
Nowhere
That I should
Give up
Get a real job
And to quit
Dreaming

But one day
I’ll prove them
All wrong
My dreams of
Writing and
Singing will
Some true
One I’ll be done
Saying
“I’m gonna be
Somebody”
 Because
I will be
Somebody

Humanoid

I feel many
Emotions
Sometimes
I’m against
It all
Love
Hate
The sun
The night
The authorities
The force
The rules
And even the wall

You know what
My heart beats on
But to tell
You the truth
I don’t care
And I shall
Hunt my shadow
You can believe
It’s too fast
But I don’t
Come on
Give me more
I can’t get enough

My position
Remains unknown
And I’ve experienced
Loneliness
I know it hurts
So no need to
Tell me

I’ve caught myself
In so many worlds
That I’ve begun to
Drown
And turn against
Myself

I need something
I can feel
And I want you to
Show me something
I can see

I’m down with all the
Questions
I’m done will all your
Reasons
With systems
I am also done
With
Bleeding then
Healing and then
Bleeding again
I’m just done

Take it away
All my pain
Please
Help me
I’m drowning in pain

Please
I don’t wanna be
Humanoid anymore

again no copyright infringement intended

only inspired by the song "Humanoid"

Monster

People always
Think I’m just
The sweet
Nice
Person
They’ve known

What they don’t
Know is that
There is an
Unknown side
Who is full
Of anger
Rage
Sadness

Sometimes
She wins
Over me
The monster
Lives within me
And she
Will get the
Best of me
At points

Beyond These Four Walls

I know
Out there
There is
More than
What I
See

Beyond my
Bedroom
Beyond my
Country
I know
There are
Many wonders
Many things
To see

One day
I’ll see
Them
One day
I’ll wake up

One day
The world
Will know
My name
And one
Day
I’ll be
Ready to
Leave and
Hopefully
See the
World
Beyond these
Four walls

I Still Love You

No matter
How far
The distance
No mater how many
Times we
Fight
No matter
How many
Insults we throw
I’m always here
Just for you

You are the only
One I’ve ever
Let in
You’re the one
I’d give it all
Up for

You are my life
And even if I say
Cruel things
Hurtful words
Remember
I still love you

I'm Still Here

When the world
Just doesn’t
Agree with you
Don’t give it all up

When you feel
Alone and cold
Just let me know
I’ll be there

When everything
Goes wrong
Don’t throw
Your life away
I’m still here
I’ll guide you
Through it all

I know how
You feel
And I’ll always help you
Just take my
Outstretched hand
I’ll be your
Guide

In memory of Phoebe Prince

1994-2010

RIP Phoebe

Save Me

He came from no where
Just when I was
About to give it
All up

He must have
Heard my silent plea
For all
I wanted was
Someone
Who could save me
From nothing and no one
But myself

I never thought
He’d be the one
To save me

I can’t understand it
How could he have
Known
How could he have
Heard the plea

All I know is
He saved me from
Me

Silent Plea

As I stand here
Up on this roof
So high
I think of everything
That I had
But lost

He walked away
And left me
Left me here
To die

He was my everything
He had my heart
And my soul

And now as I stand here
Looking down
At the city
Below
I cry as
I whisper
“Don’t let me”

Your Automatic Feelings

Your engine heart
Every time it beats
I die

Your electric voice
Hurts
Your every word stabs
My heart and soul
Just like every
Word in your letters

To me it feels
Automatic when
I count the cars
On that crossroad that
Come and go
Just like you
It seems

It's a lie when you
Say things will get better
But your unemotional actions
Insinuate they never will

Each face
I watch that I don’t know
Slowly erases the
Face of you

It feels painful
Even systematic
If you ask me
You’re automatic

It seems
Each step you make
Every breath you take
Are automatic
And robotic

Your heart and soul
Seem remote controlled

To me
This life is just
So sick

You just have
Automatic feelings

It took me long enough
To realize
 There is no
Real love in you
But so why do I
Continue to love you

I do not mean any copyright infringement on the song "Automatic" by Tokio Hotel

This is merely inspired by the song

Stranded

If there is anything
Worse than being alone
It’s being stranded

I’ve gotten use to it
Being stranded
It’s no fun whatsoever
Boring

My Heart and My Soul

When I’m with you
I never have regrets
I’m numb to the world

There’s no one else around
Only you

No one can make me feel
The way you make me feel

Hysterical
Passionate
Loved
Cared and caring

There’s no one
I’d rather be with

You are my love
My everything

You have
My heart and
My soul
 And I give you
My love

Rose Amongst Weeds

The way you are to
Others is like
A weed
Nothing of importance
A bother

The way you are to
Me is like
A rose amongst
Weeds
My world
My everything

It’s not the way
You look
It’s not the way
You act
It’s the way
You make me laugh
It’s you personality

You are my
Rose
Amongst their
Weeds

Like Me

If I’ve ever met
Someone who’s a lot
Like me
I don’t remember them

If I ever meet a person
Like that
I want to forever be
Their friend

I’d love them like they are
My brother or sister

And I’ll greet them
With joy
And great pleasure

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If there is anything or anyone
That has ever been alone
Or afraid
It would be
The kitties and
The puppies
In the animal shelters

I know how they feel
All they want
Are friends
Someone to love them

I don’t know
About anyone else
But if I were those
Kittens and puppies
I’d want
A friend too

I Don't Wanna Be Alone

You’re always there
Not matter what

If I’ve ever
Given up
You helped me through

No matter how far
I hear your quiet crying
Nothing that I know of
Can separate us

Just don’t let me be
There alone
Into the night
Let’s stay together

When the time comes
We’ll be together

If I’ve ever told you
This seriously
I can’t remember
But ich liebe dich

Sacred

When I’m gone
I want you to know
That now matter what
I’ll always love you
Even in your darkest days
I’ll be there to light them

When I’m gone
Always remember me

Don’t give up
I’ll be there
Through think and thin

Let me tell you a secret
You’ll forever be sacred
To me

Remember my secret
And never let go

Remember
To me you’ll be
Forever sacred

Sacred

When I’m gone
I want you to know
That now matter what
I’ll always love you
Even in your darkest days
I’ll be there to light them

When I’m gone
Always remember me

Don’t give up
I’ll be there
Through think and thin

Let me tell you a secret
You’ll forever be sacred
To me

Remember my secret
And never let go

Remember
Für mich wirst du immer heilig sein

Would You

If I asked you
Not to cry
Would you not

If I asked you
If you love me
Would you say yes

If I asked you
To hold me
Would you

If I cried
Would you comfort me

If I fell
Would you help me up

If I gave up on life
Would you help me through it

If I wanted to jump
Would you let me
Don’t let me

Love of My Life

Don’t leave me
Love of my life
I need you here
You haven’t the slightest idea
How much I love you

Please don’t take my heart
And break it
And leave me to die
Because if you do
I will haunt you
For the rest of our lives

Love of my life
Please don’t leave me
I shall die if you do

Why

In my dreams

Little children sing

A song of love for everyone

And laughter is the language spoken

But when I wake

And all I see

Is a world full of people in need

Tell me why

Does the world have to be like this

Totell you the truth

I can't understand

When someone needs so,ebody

We just turn away

Tell me why

Does it have to be this way

I ask myself

"What will I have to do to prove myself

Will I have to go across the world

Just to shoot my brother or sister"

If this is what I have to do

Then

I shall never prove myself

Can you tell me why

We let the forest burn

Let the ocean die

We cannot just be friends

Tell me

Is this how I must live

A Boomerang

Have you ever had

One of those people who

Always come back

I've got at least

One of them

I haven't the

Slightest idea

How I fell in love

With a boomerang

My Best Firend

I've always said

"It could be worse"

And I'm right

The worst thing

That could possibly

Happen is to lose your

Best friend

It hasn't happened

To me just yet

But sooner of later

It'll happen

Hopefully later instead of sooner

Better late then never

My dad always says

So my best friend

Us and always will

Be with me

In Another Dimension

How is it

I am so smart

That is to remain a 

Mystery

I hardly ever

Pay attention

I am always in

Another dimension

I guess the answers

Are in

Another

Dimension

A World of My Own

Have you ever

Travelled

Without leaving

You know

I've been to places

No one has been

I've seen things

Unthought of

And yet

I haven't left

My house

I go to many

Places and

Sometimes

It takes

A while for

Me to come back

I guess I'm in 

A

World of

My own

A Hole

They say that Love

Disapponited is just

Anger

Everybody is too busy

Fighting over

This and that

But under a

Cloud of fear and sorrow

There is a

Hole in the world

Tonight and please

Don't

Let there be a hole in the

World

Tomorrow

Blind

You never realize

That what you once had

You love and you don't

Realize it 'til it's gone

People are blind like that

They never realize life at all

What is really inside a human

Why is it humans are so blind

End of The World

What is the end of the

World for you

For me

It is losing my music

I fell so lost

So seperated

So alone

With out it

A Poem For You

I can't draw you a picture

Like my sister

I can't say what

Is my mind

I was never good at it

I can't write you a love song

I don't know how

But what I can do is

Write this poem for you

I can put down in a poem

Just what you mean to me

I can draw my love

With just words

I can tell you what is on my

Heart

I can tell you what U'd say

In a love song

So here's to the best

I've ever had

Here's a poem just for you