Worthless

All those letters I wrote to you

I still keep them in a box beneath my bed

 I was always too afraid to send them

Afraid that you'd think horrible of me

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe 

That you'd make me feel so worthless

 So worthless

All the people that com and go

In my life

I don'T seem to see

 They leave me empty

More than you ever did

Your automatic love letters

 They make me bleed

 I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make me feel so worthless

Everything that you told me

I believed

You broke all my dreams

Made me feel like I was nothing

More than your whore

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make me feel so worthless

Worthless

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make feel so worthless

You made me feel so

You made me feel so

Worthless

This is a song that I'd apparently written either last year or quite a number of months ago. I hardly remember it, but here it is.

Welcome To My Wonderland

Down I fall deep into my mind

Off to Wonderland

Leaving what's real behind

I'm your riddle

That you can't seem to read

My love's the faerytale

That's too hard to believe

So broken and sad 

As the tarnish on my crown

Nowhere to go but down

I'm so caught up in myself

Nowhere to be found

No other way but down

Down, down, down

Down, down, down

I've said my farewell to what's real

Like the pain that I feel

Welcome to my Wonderland

I'm dead

Eat me or drink me

Seeing is believing

My Wonderland, baby

Is it all in my head?

My cup runs over with emptiness

I chased the hare of my innocence
I hide behind my Cheshire smile

It was so vivid but so grey all the while

So broken and sad

As the tarnish on my crown

Nowhere to go but down

I'm so caught up in myself

And nowhere to be found

No other way but down

Down, down, down

Down, down, down

I've said my farewell to what's real

Like the pain that I feel

Welcome to my Wonderland

I'm dead

Eat me or drink me

Seeing is believing

My Wonderland baby

Is it all in my head?

This poem is a parody song to Where's My Wonderland by Blood on the Dance Floor (please don't sue me). I had the idea to write it in the "Alice" perspective. And so here it is!

My Lullaby

People have always known I hurt

But they over look it

They have known I feel so alone

None of them ever prevented it

I have scars 

that they don't know about

I bleed out my worst fears

As the artificial light hits my tears

I see the blade that shines so bright

And the scarlet blood that feels so right

All my pain just goes away

All the pain that was on display

Everyone hates me

My friends let me bleed

Everything they see

Is covered by the blade I need

All that I need

When I bleed

And cry

Is this lullaby

Hushabye baby

So broken and sad

You didn't know life

Would treat you this bad 

It's time to end the pain you hid so well

So sleep tight with a knife

As you go straight back to hell

This poem is not about me being a cutting addict. I do not cut. Unless I have personally told you otherwise, do not assume I do. I just seem to have it from a cutter's perspective.

Call To The Moon

Take me Moon

For I am a child of the night

Take me soon

So I need not fright

Take me away

So I need not fear

Take me away

Away from here