In Your Shadow I can Shine

I’m not much
Just a no body
But you
You’re the person
Everybody loves

I know that you
Love
And you know that
I love you
That’s why
In your shadow
I can shine
Despite the darkness

My soul is a nightmare
Out of control
I’m the moon and
You’re the sun

Just do me a favour
Don’t let go
Don’t you know
That in your shadow
I can shine

I’m such a sad, sad sight
But when I’m in your
Shadow
I can shine

Dedicated to Bill and Tom Kaulitz

who will always shine in each others' shadows

In the State of Confusion

I wish some people
Would make up
Their minds
I don’t understand
How they mean
One thing
But yet
Mean another

It’s all so
Confusing
Don’t people think
I have enough on
My mind
I believe so
They never
Understand

My Reply

I know of a song
The name
Zoom Into Me *
I’ve decided to
Reply to the lyrics

“Is there anybody out there
Walking alone?”
Yes, me

“Is there anybody out there
Out in the cold?”
Again, me

“One heartbeat
Lost in the crowd”
Mine

“Is there anybody shoutin’
What no one can hear?”
I am

“Is there anybody drownin’
Pulled down by the fear”
Always

“I feel you”
Do you?

“Don’t look away”
I might

“Zoom into me
Zoom into me”
Will it help?

“I know you’re scared”
You truly do?

“When you can’t breathe
I will be there”
Are you here?

“Zoom into me”
If it helps

“Is there anybody laughing
To kill the pain?”
Of course I am

“Is there anybody screamin’
The silence away?”
Almost always

“Just open your jaded eyes”
If I must

“Come closer”
Yes, of course
“And closer”
How is this?

“Zoom into me
Zoom into me”
If it helps
I will

“When the world
Cuts your soul into pieces
And you start to bleed”
Like right now?

“When you can’t breathe
I will be there”
I can’t breathe now
But you’re not here

“Zoom into me”
I shall

The author of
This poem
Gives credit to
A band called
Tokio Hotel
Thank you

*This is not the full song

I credited the band so don't sue me

What I Mean Is...

If there has
Ever been
Someone, anyone
To get my heart
Pumping
It would be
You

I don’t think
Anybody
Even in the worst of
Times
Could get me to
Smile
No one but
You

I think what
I’m trying to say is
I love you
There has nothing
And no one
I’ve ever seriously
Told that to
But you make the
First

Always

I know sometimes
We get on each others’
Nerves
We can royally piss
Each other off
But I also know that
Most days
We laugh like
There’s no
Tomorrow

We might come from
Different families
But you are the younger
Sister
I’ve always wanted
I’ve always needed
No matter how many
Arguments we have
No matter how angry
We get at each other
I want you to remember
You’ll forever be sacred to me and
I’ll always love you

Used

I feel so lost
And I have a
Good feeling
No one cares

I’m not surprised
I believe
I’ve never been
Cared about
People have led
Me to believe
Otherwise

I’ve always been
Used
Like I’m some
Kind if tool
Just to be used
Then tossed to the side

That is the
Reason I cry
Because I am
Used

Never the Same Again

I have been told
That I am always
The same
Never changing

I’ve proved those
People
Wrong
I’ve changed

 My whole life
Has always been
Hectic
I’ve always
Cried
Screamed
But yet I’ve
Never laughed

I know that
Will never be
The same
I will always
Cry, yes
But I shall also
Laugh

I'm Not Gonna Live Forever

Miracles
I don’t believe in them
Never did
Nothing hardly ever
Happens here
I’m tired of it

I want to live
My life to the fullest
Wanna know why?
Because I’m not
Gonna live forever
So I better make it
Now or not at all

To tell you the truth
I don’t  believe in
Fairey tales
Way too cynical
And people have told me
That I don’t have
An imagination because
I don’t believe
They’re wrong
Otherwise I wouldn’t
Be writing this

Forever

If there was ever
A day that went
Well
I don’t remember it

For now I wait
For what?
The best day of my life

That’ll be the day
I’ll be fixed
And I’ll be ready
To come home
And be fine
Left alone

That day never came
That day will never
Come
I’ll be waiting
Forever

My life is screwed up
And will forever remain
Screwed up

Welcome to Humanoid City

We live here
No human knows of
Us

We are not
Human ourselves
We are
Humanoid aliens

The only way to
Find us is to
Believe you are
One of us

I have lived
Here for years
Believe me
Years feel like days

Our city is located
In a special place
But if you are
Human and read this
You’d think
I’m crazy
If I told you
You’d say
There’s no such
Humans do not
Believe
So I shall not
Tell you

Now all I have
To say is
Welcome to
Humanoid City
Dear friend

Promises

Can you promise
Me you’ll never
Hurt me?
I won’t
Hurt you

Can you promise
Me you’ll always
Love me?
I’ll always
Love you

Can you promise
Me you’ll be the one
I need?
I’ll be the one
You’ll need

Can you promise
You’ll treat
Me right?
I’ll treat
You right

And can you promise
Me you’ll
Love me
Treat me
Need me and
Feed me your love?
I can promise
You that and more

Be Somebody

I’ve been told
That what I
Dream of being
Will get me
Nowhere
That I should
Give up
Get a real job
And to quit
Dreaming

But one day
I’ll prove them
All wrong
My dreams of
Writing and
Singing will
Some true
One I’ll be done
Saying
“I’m gonna be
Somebody”
 Because
I will be
Somebody

Humanoid

I feel many
Emotions
Sometimes
I’m against
It all
Love
Hate
The sun
The night
The authorities
The force
The rules
And even the wall

You know what
My heart beats on
But to tell
You the truth
I don’t care
And I shall
Hunt my shadow
You can believe
It’s too fast
But I don’t
Come on
Give me more
I can’t get enough

My position
Remains unknown
And I’ve experienced
Loneliness
I know it hurts
So no need to
Tell me

I’ve caught myself
In so many worlds
That I’ve begun to
Drown
And turn against
Myself

I need something
I can feel
And I want you to
Show me something
I can see

I’m down with all the
Questions
I’m done will all your
Reasons
With systems
I am also done
With
Bleeding then
Healing and then
Bleeding again
I’m just done

Take it away
All my pain
Please
Help me
I’m drowning in pain

Please
I don’t wanna be
Humanoid anymore

again no copyright infringement intended

only inspired by the song "Humanoid"

Monster

People always
Think I’m just
The sweet
Nice
Person
They’ve known

What they don’t
Know is that
There is an
Unknown side
Who is full
Of anger
Rage
Sadness

Sometimes
She wins
Over me
The monster
Lives within me
And she
Will get the
Best of me
At points

Beyond These Four Walls

I know
Out there
There is
More than
What I
See

Beyond my
Bedroom
Beyond my
Country
I know
There are
Many wonders
Many things
To see

One day
I’ll see
Them
One day
I’ll wake up

One day
The world
Will know
My name
And one
Day
I’ll be
Ready to
Leave and
Hopefully
See the
World
Beyond these
Four walls

I Still Love You

No matter
How far
The distance
No mater how many
Times we
Fight
No matter
How many
Insults we throw
I’m always here
Just for you

You are the only
One I’ve ever
Let in
You’re the one
I’d give it all
Up for

You are my life
And even if I say
Cruel things
Hurtful words
Remember
I still love you

I'm Still Here

When the world
Just doesn’t
Agree with you
Don’t give it all up

When you feel
Alone and cold
Just let me know
I’ll be there

When everything
Goes wrong
Don’t throw
Your life away
I’m still here
I’ll guide you
Through it all

I know how
You feel
And I’ll always help you
Just take my
Outstretched hand
I’ll be your
Guide

In memory of Phoebe Prince

1994-2010

RIP Phoebe

Save Me

He came from no where
Just when I was
About to give it
All up

He must have
Heard my silent plea
For all
I wanted was
Someone
Who could save me
From nothing and no one
But myself

I never thought
He’d be the one
To save me

I can’t understand it
How could he have
Known
How could he have
Heard the plea

All I know is
He saved me from
Me

Silent Plea

As I stand here
Up on this roof
So high
I think of everything
That I had
But lost

He walked away
And left me
Left me here
To die

He was my everything
He had my heart
And my soul

And now as I stand here
Looking down
At the city
Below
I cry as
I whisper
“Don’t let me”

Your Automatic Feelings

Your engine heart
Every time it beats
I die

Your electric voice
Hurts
Your every word stabs
My heart and soul
Just like every
Word in your letters

To me it feels
Automatic when
I count the cars
On that crossroad that
Come and go
Just like you
It seems

It's a lie when you
Say things will get better
But your unemotional actions
Insinuate they never will

Each face
I watch that I don’t know
Slowly erases the
Face of you

It feels painful
Even systematic
If you ask me
You’re automatic

It seems
Each step you make
Every breath you take
Are automatic
And robotic

Your heart and soul
Seem remote controlled

To me
This life is just
So sick

You just have
Automatic feelings

It took me long enough
To realize
 There is no
Real love in you
But so why do I
Continue to love you

I do not mean any copyright infringement on the song "Automatic" by Tokio Hotel

This is merely inspired by the song

Stranded

If there is anything
Worse than being alone
It’s being stranded

I’ve gotten use to it
Being stranded
It’s no fun whatsoever
Boring

My Heart and My Soul

When I’m with you
I never have regrets
I’m numb to the world

There’s no one else around
Only you

No one can make me feel
The way you make me feel

Hysterical
Passionate
Loved
Cared and caring

There’s no one
I’d rather be with

You are my love
My everything

You have
My heart and
My soul
 And I give you
My love

Rose Amongst Weeds

The way you are to
Others is like
A weed
Nothing of importance
A bother

The way you are to
Me is like
A rose amongst
Weeds
My world
My everything

It’s not the way
You look
It’s not the way
You act
It’s the way
You make me laugh
It’s you personality

You are my
Rose
Amongst their
Weeds

Like Me

If I’ve ever met
Someone who’s a lot
Like me
I don’t remember them

If I ever meet a person
Like that
I want to forever be
Their friend

I’d love them like they are
My brother or sister

And I’ll greet them
With joy
And great pleasure

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If there is anything or anyone
That has ever been alone
Or afraid
It would be
The kitties and
The puppies
In the animal shelters

I know how they feel
All they want
Are friends
Someone to love them

I don’t know
About anyone else
But if I were those
Kittens and puppies
I’d want
A friend too

I Don't Wanna Be Alone

You’re always there
Not matter what

If I’ve ever
Given up
You helped me through

No matter how far
I hear your quiet crying
Nothing that I know of
Can separate us

Just don’t let me be
There alone
Into the night
Let’s stay together

When the time comes
We’ll be together

If I’ve ever told you
This seriously
I can’t remember
But ich liebe dich

Sacred

When I’m gone
I want you to know
That now matter what
I’ll always love you
Even in your darkest days
I’ll be there to light them

When I’m gone
Always remember me

Don’t give up
I’ll be there
Through think and thin

Let me tell you a secret
You’ll forever be sacred
To me

Remember my secret
And never let go

Remember
To me you’ll be
Forever sacred

Sacred

When I’m gone
I want you to know
That now matter what
I’ll always love you
Even in your darkest days
I’ll be there to light them

When I’m gone
Always remember me

Don’t give up
I’ll be there
Through think and thin

Let me tell you a secret
You’ll forever be sacred
To me

Remember my secret
And never let go

Remember
Für mich wirst du immer heilig sein

Would You

If I asked you
Not to cry
Would you not

If I asked you
If you love me
Would you say yes

If I asked you
To hold me
Would you

If I cried
Would you comfort me

If I fell
Would you help me up

If I gave up on life
Would you help me through it

If I wanted to jump
Would you let me
Don’t let me

Love of My Life

Don’t leave me
Love of my life
I need you here
You haven’t the slightest idea
How much I love you

Please don’t take my heart
And break it
And leave me to die
Because if you do
I will haunt you
For the rest of our lives

Love of my life
Please don’t leave me
I shall die if you do

Why

In my dreams

Little children sing

A song of love for everyone

And laughter is the language spoken

But when I wake

And all I see

Is a world full of people in need

Tell me why

Does the world have to be like this

Totell you the truth

I can't understand

When someone needs so,ebody

We just turn away

Tell me why

Does it have to be this way

I ask myself

"What will I have to do to prove myself

Will I have to go across the world

Just to shoot my brother or sister"

If this is what I have to do

Then

I shall never prove myself

Can you tell me why

We let the forest burn

Let the ocean die

We cannot just be friends

Tell me

Is this how I must live

A Boomerang

Have you ever had

One of those people who

Always come back

I've got at least

One of them

I haven't the

Slightest idea

How I fell in love

With a boomerang

My Best Firend

I've always said

"It could be worse"

And I'm right

The worst thing

That could possibly

Happen is to lose your

Best friend

It hasn't happened

To me just yet

But sooner of later

It'll happen

Hopefully later instead of sooner

Better late then never

My dad always says

So my best friend

Us and always will

Be with me

In Another Dimension

How is it

I am so smart

That is to remain a 

Mystery

I hardly ever

Pay attention

I am always in

Another dimension

I guess the answers

Are in

Another

Dimension

A World of My Own

Have you ever

Travelled

Without leaving

You know

I've been to places

No one has been

I've seen things

Unthought of

And yet

I haven't left

My house

I go to many

Places and

Sometimes

It takes

A while for

Me to come back

I guess I'm in 

A

World of

My own

A Hole

They say that Love

Disapponited is just

Anger

Everybody is too busy

Fighting over

This and that

But under a

Cloud of fear and sorrow

There is a

Hole in the world

Tonight and please

Don't

Let there be a hole in the

World

Tomorrow

Blind

You never realize

That what you once had

You love and you don't

Realize it 'til it's gone

People are blind like that

They never realize life at all

What is really inside a human

Why is it humans are so blind

End of The World

What is the end of the

World for you

For me

It is losing my music

I fell so lost

So seperated

So alone

With out it

A Poem For You

I can't draw you a picture

Like my sister

I can't say what

Is my mind

I was never good at it

I can't write you a love song

I don't know how

But what I can do is

Write this poem for you

I can put down in a poem

Just what you mean to me

I can draw my love

With just words

I can tell you what is on my

Heart

I can tell you what U'd say

In a love song

So here's to the best

I've ever had

Here's a poem just for you

Will We Meet Again

For apart for quite

Sometime

I met you long ago

Can hear me

Calling you

What ever happened

To what we had

And answer this

Will we ever

Meet again

Who Wants to Live Forever?

If you had a choice

Would you want to live

Forever

Or not

Now think

What

Are the benefits

If I had the choice

I wouldn't because

There so much in life

That is to be cherished

And only some of it

Can be a

One time deal

Besides

Who wants to live forever

Anyway

Loneliess Has Left

Loneliness was once my friend

We were closer than my sister and me

And now we are distant friends

I know one day Loneliness will be back

But for now

Loneliness has left

I shall see you again

Loneliness

My friend

Loneliness

You have left me

For now

Because of You

My dreams were once

Nothing but wishes

Now they have come

True

Because of You

From the moment

I said yes

Everything changed

And it's all

Because of you

It's not a bad thing

And it's not a good thing

It's more of a great thing

And it's to you I give my thanks

And it was all because of you

Opposite

How is it possible

That I came across

Someone who's the exact

Opposite

I always will wonder

I never couldunderstand

And I don't think

I ever will

Not Possible

Have you ever lost a dearest friend

Could you live with the pain

Who I lost was someone who had known me

Understood me

Helped me

This person was the most happy-go-lucky I knew

At moments

They were royally ticked off

And the rest of the time

They were so cheerful

It was hard not to laugh

This person had a great sense of humour

It was not easy to be upset or mad

When around them

They kept me on my feet

Even in the darkest times

How could I ever get along without them

You will be missed by millions

But they won't miss you as much as me

Goodbye and farewell

I will see you once again

Have You Ever

Have you ever

Loved somebody so much

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever

Needed something

So sad

It makes you cry

Have you ever

Known something

Feels so right

Have you ever

Loved somebody

So much you

Wanna cry

Have you ever

Finally Found Him

It took me time

But I found him

He was staring me

In the face

I finally found the first

And not my last

He finally found me

Raise Me Up

There is no life

Without its hunger

Even each restless

Heart

Beats so

Imperfectly

But when I'm down

And my soul so weary

There is only one who

Comes to sit with me

In the silence

She raises me up

She is my

Friend

My sister

She understands

Me

All I can say is

You raise me up

To more than I

Can be 

My friend

Dedicated to my friend, Meagan A. Holt

The Outcast

To be me

Is to be an

Outcast

Now matter what

I do

They always

Are cruel

It is like I

Am a boat or

A lonely island

Why am I

Always the

Outcast

My Darkest Days

There were times

When I felt so

Alone

I felt emotional

Sepertaed

I am now

Past

My 

Darkest

Days

I had never

Felt so alone

Ever

Those were

My

Darkest

Days

Never Again

Will I slip

Back into

My

Darkest

Days

The Rose

Elegant and

Graceful

Beauty beyond

Beauty

The most beautiful

Flower

Lies within

Me

My Reflection

You may think

You see who

I am

But you'll never

Know me

Everyday

It's like I 

Play a part

Now I see

If I wear 

A mask

I can fool

The world

But now my

Heart

Who is that

Girl I see

When will my

Reflection show

Who I really am

Inside

I hide behind

Everything

I am

But my reflection

Does not reveal

Who I really

Am

My reflection is

Not who I am

Rebel Side

Underneath

My quietness

I hide a

Rebel side

I am different

Minus the books

You'll see my

Rebel side

My Wish

If I could

Have any

Wish

I would wish

For him to

See that

There is

More to

Me than

Just books and

Quietness

But a rebel girl

With no choice

But to hide

Her rebel side

With You

Being with you

Makes me

Feel as though

I'm a

New person

I may be

Different

From others

But I am

The same

As them

When I'm 

With you

I will never feel

The same

Without you

The Dreamer

She gazes

Off into space

Randomly writing

And doodling

In her notebook

When class ends

They all think

Here comes 

The dreamer

I get that

A lot

I'm the dreamer

Summer Time

As the warm air

Flows in

I finish off

My seventh grade career

Within the next

Two months and some odd weeks

I will become on of

The

Oldest middle schoolers

But before

That comes

I must finish these

Last

Three and a half weeks

Of seventh grade

Man I can't wait

For summer time

Weirdest Things

The weirdest thing

Can happen

At anytime

It happens to

Me

All the time

But in the

Seocond to the last

Week of March

The weirdest thing

Heppened

I was given 

Poem

No one ever gives

Me poems

I write and

Give

But I don't receive

Odd

That's only one

Of the weirdest

Things that happen to

Me

The Invisible

They talk about

Me like

I'm not even

There

Whether they

Kow it or not

I feel like

One of

The invisible

Or maybe the

Words

I'm invisible

To them

Might work

Lost

How do you

Feel when

You've lost someone

You love

How do you

Know when you've

Lost them

There are many

Ways to tell

Me I lost

That person

Nearly four years ago

She was like my friend

More of a mother

She is my Aunt Dawne

I really miss her

And love her

Forever and always

My Guardian Angel

She watches

Me as I sleep

Keeping me safe

As my dreams

Go on

As I get ready

To go to sleep

I ask her

To keep me safe

Throughout my days

My guardian angel

Angela

Keeps me safe and protected

I know day in

Day out

I'm safe with

Angela

I shall say this

Guardian angel

Keep me safe

Wherever I go

Th Rain and My Tears

Every time I am sad

It rains

The rain falls because of me

I don't know why

But it happens

No one know it but me

I have become so sad

That the rain becomes my tears

This is how it is to me

No matter how hard I try not to

I cry

I wish the rain wasn't my tears

So much I know about the rain

There is

Less I know about my tears

My tears have become the rain sometimes

My tears

My rain

A Heart of Gold

I wear

Around my

Wrist

A bracelet

That has many glass beads

But only one metal charm

It is a golden heart

It symbolizes

My heart

Which is

Made of

Gold

I'm so kind

My heart has turned

To gold

I have a

Heart of gold

Fool Again

As I slowly fade

From her life

I decide

This is the

Last time

This shall happen

She's not the

First person

To do so

I guess

All I can say is

I can't believe

I'm the

Fool again

Flying With No Wings

There are many things

You

Care for

Like books

And other things

But what do

You really cherish

For all your life

Some people learn

They fly without wings

When they wake up

Every morning

Others find it in their

Children's face

Or in their solitary lives

Maybe in their

Lover's eyes

For me

My aunt

Makes me

Fly with no wings

It's the little things

Only I know and

 Those are the things

That make her

Apart of me

And that's the

Joy she brings

To me

As the song

"Flying Without Wings"

Goes

When you find that

Special thing

You're flying without wings

I guess that means

I'm

Flying with

No wings

Dedicated to Dawne M. Haralambou

Simplest Person

When you

Find the most

Simplest person

You don't care

But when that

Person

Gets to know you

You never knew that

Simplest person was

Your one and only

Your simplest person

Is with you

Forever and a day

You will always have

Your simplest person

By your side

An Angel of Darkness

An angel of

Darkness

Roams with

No one

She stands

Tall

Not caring

About what happens

In this

Cruel world

No one sees

Her as she

Passes through the

Darkness

Bringing the

Darkness

With her

An Angel of Darkness

Passes without a

Trace

An Angel of Darkness

Shall rise again

Someone Who Cares

I feel so alone

There is no colors

In my world

Just blacks

And greys

Blues

Is there anyone

Out in this lonely world

For me?

Can there be

Someone who cares?

Is there a person

Who is like me?

Depressed?

Lonely?

Mad at the world?

I hope and have dreamed

About help that never comes

Can there be help on the way?

Or am I to find

My own solution?

Those People

I've only known

But a few

People

Who feel the same

As I do

Those people

They help

Me with what I do

They encourage me

To write poetry

And they help me with

My tough times

They keep me

Sane with all

I have left

I'm surprised

I'm even still

Here to write this

Poem

But those people

Keep me alive

And sane for

I might leave them

All

One day