Loneliness is Gone Forever

Loneliness is gone

And never will return

I have beaten it away

In hope it never hurts

Loneliness is gone

It is now a stranger

Drifting our to sea

Far away from me

Loneliness is gone

Never again my friend

I know now that it never will again

Because I found someone who

Won't let it happen

Loneliness is gone

Never to return

Loneliness is gone

Gone forever

My Savior

I finally found my savior

He was hiding in the dark

He had always been in my life

Just hidden from my sight

He came and saved me from my Hell

He came before it was too late

He is my knight in shining armor

He saved me from my pain

He slayed the dragon

Pulled me out of the water

And brought me back to life

Anthem of the Outcast

We are cast down upon this Earth

Forgotten and forsaken

Left alone like the undertaken

From the day of our birth

We are damned straight to Hell

The angels that sent us to fall

As our souls hit the wall

And trapped us in our prison cell

Through the stars we are bound

Cursed to walk this world alone

With our wounds that have yet to be sewn

Tortured by our personal hellhounds

We have the power to heal and save

Those who seem crooked and unholy

And help them to be who they are fully

Even if it takes us to our grave

We are the different, we are the outcast

We were sent to live as we please

In everything that we seize

We are the future, present, and past

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What if I wanted to end my life

Will you pick me up and tell me never

Would you tell me it's still all right

What if I'd want to give in

Let my demons consume me

Would you hold me back

What id I wanted you to know

What I've been thinking of

That I never had the courage

To tell you

What if I wanted to get down

On my knees and beg for your help

Would you give it willingly

Kings and Queens

Just like in chess

I'll be the queen and you'll be the king

I'll protect you through the mess

In which you taught me how to sing

I'll be there for you

When you need a laugh or smile

It can be just us two

Although we're here for just a while

You made me see that life

Isn't so bad

You ended my strife

Now I'm no longer sad

I know you're no knight in shining armor

But I hope we have our "happily ever after"

Lovestruck

I always felt so alone

That I would always be on my own

Then you walked into my life

And ended all that strive

You're my other half

You always seem to make me laugh

Or smile

Even just for a while

I'd never felt this way before

My heart had always been so sore

Love, you've got me falling head over heels

It's so true it doesn't feel real

Worthless

All those letters I wrote to you

I still keep them in a box beneath my bed

 I was always too afraid to send them

Afraid that you'd think horrible of me

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe 

That you'd make me feel so worthless

 So worthless

All the people that com and go

In my life

I don'T seem to see

 They leave me empty

More than you ever did

Your automatic love letters

 They make me bleed

 I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make me feel so worthless

Everything that you told me

I believed

You broke all my dreams

Made me feel like I was nothing

More than your whore

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make me feel so worthless

Worthless

Your automatic love letters

They make me bleed

I kept my faith in you and you sent me

Automatic love letters

The loneliness that you gave me

The only thing that gave me hope

I tried not to believe

That you'd make feel so worthless

You made me feel so

You made me feel so

Worthless

This is a song that I'd apparently written either last year or quite a number of months ago. I hardly remember it, but here it is.

Welcome To My Wonderland

Down I fall deep into my mind

Off to Wonderland

Leaving what's real behind

I'm your riddle

That you can't seem to read

My love's the faerytale

That's too hard to believe

So broken and sad 

As the tarnish on my crown

Nowhere to go but down

I'm so caught up in myself

Nowhere to be found

No other way but down

Down, down, down

Down, down, down

I've said my farewell to what's real

Like the pain that I feel

Welcome to my Wonderland

I'm dead

Eat me or drink me

Seeing is believing

My Wonderland, baby

Is it all in my head?

My cup runs over with emptiness

I chased the hare of my innocence
I hide behind my Cheshire smile

It was so vivid but so grey all the while

So broken and sad

As the tarnish on my crown

Nowhere to go but down

I'm so caught up in myself

And nowhere to be found

No other way but down

Down, down, down

Down, down, down

I've said my farewell to what's real

Like the pain that I feel

Welcome to my Wonderland

I'm dead

Eat me or drink me

Seeing is believing

My Wonderland baby

Is it all in my head?

This poem is a parody song to Where's My Wonderland by Blood on the Dance Floor (please don't sue me). I had the idea to write it in the "Alice" perspective. And so here it is!

My Lullaby

People have always known I hurt

But they over look it

They have known I feel so alone

None of them ever prevented it

I have scars 

that they don't know about

I bleed out my worst fears

As the artificial light hits my tears

I see the blade that shines so bright

And the scarlet blood that feels so right

All my pain just goes away

All the pain that was on display

Everyone hates me

My friends let me bleed

Everything they see

Is covered by the blade I need

All that I need

When I bleed

And cry

Is this lullaby

Hushabye baby

So broken and sad

You didn't know life

Would treat you this bad 

It's time to end the pain you hid so well

So sleep tight with a knife

As you go straight back to hell

This poem is not about me being a cutting addict. I do not cut. Unless I have personally told you otherwise, do not assume I do. I just seem to have it from a cutter's perspective.

Call To The Moon

Take me Moon

For I am a child of the night

Take me soon

So I need not fright

Take me away

So I need not fear

Take me away

Away from here