Endless Pain

I've always feared

that I will never find love

that I'll always be alone

You've always had the love

I've wanted

Endlessly loving another

My pain is here

The pain is strong

Your urges rise

Your pain is gone

But my hands are tied

with it

I'd rather lie awake

at night with pain

Than sleep tightly

with dreams of finding love

then waking up to find it

untrue and unreal

My mind is far away

Though I maybe

physically near

This poem is a found poem. Long story short, I had to write a found poem for English class and decided to use one I'd already written. This poem is just one I wrote anyway.

Blame

You're upset

I know you are

You only talk to

a select few people

and I'm not one 

of them

I won't hurt you

not emotionally

I couldn't

it's not in my nature

You're one of the only

people who have seen me

for me

I don't want to lose you

not like this

It may not be

my fault for making 

you upset

but I blame myself

just the same

Just remember

I am here for you

Broken Promises

Your promises to me

are empty,

nothing

You tend to break them

It's almost like you want

to build up my hope

and love to watch my

hopes be broken

You make me stop trusting

people all together

You're not the only

one who does it

Others have done

the same

Empty

I don't know why

but I feel so alone

The people I used to

know

have left me here

Even abandoned me

in the worst of

times

I used to feel

so loved

Now

I feel nothing

Only emptiness

From The Start

This is just another story

full of vampires, princes, and princesses

Listen close my dear audience

For I am the narrator

and this is just the prologue

Wait! wait

This is but the beginning

Continue on as the heroes

conquer the villians

But what if the villains win?

The lands will be in depression

nowhere to turn

Ah

but then there are other heroes

right?

This is but another story

with dragons, heroes, and villians

Listen close my dearest audience

For I am the narrator

and this is the prologue

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

I yell

I cry

I'm always angry

I feel myself

pushing people

I love away

I want to be alone

But I want someone near

I feel like a monster

or like I'm two-faced

I hate

then love

I cry

then laugh

I'm angry

then I'm happy

I'm such a monster

The Blade

You think that you

can say sorry and

everything will be fine

But I know that you'd

be the first to do it again

I'm not stupid

I know you

If I didn't know you

better than I know myself

I'd take you back

But that will

never happen

I know that you'd just

bury the knife

deep into my spine

again

Days We Lost

Where did the simple days go?

How did this happen to us?

When did we grow apart?

I miss what we had

The smiles faded

to frowns

The light

turned to dark

Everything that I used to know

that we had

has been lost

All the smiles

all the laughs

all those happy moments

have vanished with my sanity

I miss the simple days

Now only a black cloud

follows me

in your place

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 Another argument

I flee the scene

I don't wanna

be apart of

Raised voices

Thrown punches

Shattered glass

Broken hearts

Just another day

in my house

What Is Christmas?

Is it the shopping?

The gifts?

Tons of decorations?

Not to me

Christmas is

when I get to spend

Time with my family

My family and I

We don't have a lot

We never have

but we do have

each other

and that is all we need

I'm glad I have them

to spend Christmas with